Sometimes, my mind scares me. How deeply I think of some things, how I perceive the world, people around me…my daily interactions. I feel like I feel too much, I catch a lot of things most people don’t…I can immediately immerse my self in someone else’s story, feel what they feel, and offer complete and utter attention.
I think a lot of the time, I’m scared to own this. I spend a lot of time thinking life would be so much easier if I didn’t think so much (lol). If I didn’t analyze everything and everyone. If I didn’t always want to know WHY…if I didn’t care so much about how my actions affect others…life would just be EASIER.
I’m definitely an empath through and through, I have a bad habit of sacrificing myself for others gains, something I am working on. I need to be a little more selfish, for the benefit of myself.
Anyways, I’m trying a new thing…where every day I tell myself I’m good, I’m good enough. This is my mind, and its all I have, until the day I die. So, I need to love it. I need to own it. I need to see the positives. Even though I feel this overthinking mind is the reason why I experience anxiety, depression, panic attacks, high levels of stress in general…It will also be the reason why I will be successful. Why, I will win in my life story.
Its scary to love yourself, to love your mind. But, I’m starting to believe it is the only way to true happiness.