Herpes HATES l-lysine

So, it has been a little over year since I got HSV2. I am one of the lucky ones who has an outbreak every month, if not more. I think the longest I’ve ever gone between outbreaks  is 5 weeks…woo!

Anyways, I’ve started to treat my body as a science expierment, to see what is actually helpful in regards to stopping/healing an outbreak. After a year, I’ve finally figured it out!



I drink it in almost every glass of water I have, every day, all day long! Now, since I’ve started drinking it (about a month or so now) I have had one outbreak BUT it was the tiniest outbreak, literally two tiny, tiny blisters that healed within 48-72 hours! All my other outbreaks have been 6-10 blisters and took 5-7 days to completely heal, if not longer.


I don’t find the taste to be too pungent, but if you do just add some lemon juice, can’t taste a thing. I also melted down some coconut oil and added the powdered L-lysine, stirred it up, let it set, and now use it as an ointment during an outbreak or if I feel one is coming on. I’m not a doctor, but I think it helps with healing/prevention as the skin absorbs it.

Anyways, I hope if you are struggling with outbreaks you find this article and powdered l-lysine helps you too! I’ve only tried one brand so far, and I think it cost me like $15 on amazon, so maybe other higher quality brands will completely rid me of outbreaks, but for now I am sooo happy with the results I am already getting.

And remember, it’s just herpes! Or cold sores that appear on your genitals…whateves.



You don’t miss him

You don’t miss his love, you just miss love.

You don’t miss his embrace, you just miss being embraced.

You don’t miss his kisses, you just miss kisses.

You don’t miss his conversation, you just miss conversation.

You don’t miss his love, you just miss love.

It’s all Beyonce’s fault.

I honestly feel like she did a big disservice to woman everywhere by forgiving Jay-Z. It has even fucked me up a bit. Beyonce forgave Jay-Z for cheating on her when they were married, I can forgive my fuck-up of a ex-BF for hooking up with some two bit hoe 5 days after we broke up, right?



No!!!! No. No. No. No. No.

I should not forgive him, and you should not forgive any person who has ever done anything similar to you.


The situation has been played out so many times, so many girls have gone through the exact some thing…it downplays the entire situation and makes it seem like such a joke. Like, can I really be mad about this? Becky, Amber and Lauren’s boyfriends did the same thing, and their happy now! WTF. This story is getting so boring, and worse, its becoming the NORM.

Its like I’m the crazy one if I don’t forgive him. Somehow, after he did this shitty thing all coked out and wasted, he then realized how much I mean to him and that he can’t live without me….or did you just get caught you little fucker. I feel like if having to do something so awful and see how deeply you’ve wounded someone, is the only way you can realize how much you ‘love’ them, you may be a psycho path.

Ugh. Relationships. Can’t live with em, can’t live with out em.

People say you will eventually meet someone who would never do those things to you, who will treat you like the goddess you are…yes, those are called nice guys, I’ve met them, yawn. Those are the people who I end up hurting! WHERE IS THE BALANCE!?

Anyways, if I end up forgiving this dude who I literally already broke up with because he sucked but for some joke after he goes and confirms that he truly is the shittiest guy ever, I want him to show me all the love and cuddles, I whole heartedly blame Beyonce!

I Broke Up with the Love of My Life

Because he fucking sucked.

He was most definitely the love of my life…at first.

How many times do we date someone and think they are really ‘the one’? Before finding the actual one? Who knows. But, I have finally learned that ya, maybe you were ‘the one’ at one time or another, but now you are not, and its most likely because you suck.

How many times did you make me laugh? How many times did you make me excited? Make me smile? Did you do something, just for me? I would have to say very few. Since I can’t really remember any times.

You know what I do remember? The amount of times I made you laugh, made you smile, went out of my way to make you happy. Isn’t that sort of sad?

I should only be giving my love to someone who deserves it, and sends it right back. And if I don’t have anyone, then I will give that love to myself. It is a hard lesson to learn, but I’m making myself finally learn it. Sometimes, love is not enough.

It doesn’t matter how much you love someone, if they don’t treat you like the sunshine you are, you should kindly ask them to, getthefuckout.

And then rejoice, because you just lost a lot of weight (yay!), and have more love to give to those who are deserving, and to yourself!

Ps. it is their loss – you don’t deserve them, and they definitely don’t deserve you!

Lost = Lucky.

At times, I feel very lost. Confused. Asking my self, what is the point of life? Will I always feel lost? Does true happiness really exist? True contentment?



Women are born with 1 million eggs, in a lifetime, they will release 300-400 eggs. In one male ejaculation, there are between 200-500 million sperm. In a month, for a young healthy female and male having unprotected sex, there is on average, only about 11% chance of getting pregnant without trying.

Maybe, the feeling of being lost, of having your back up against a wall…maybe it is actually a very natural feeling. Its how our journey began, from the day of conception, it has been a fight, an odds against you sort of thing. Some, obviously, face harder situations than others, but nonetheless, we all had to fight to get here, and have to fight stay here.

So, what am I trying to say…what is my conclusion…It was a fight to get here, so we should also realize we are so lucky to be here, even though it may not feel like it at times. It may feel like the odds are against us…but if you look at the math above, the odds have always been against us. Our conception, the egg and sperm you are made up of, coming together, that was pure luck. The right place at the right time.

I am lost, and I am lucky. We are all. We have to fight, but in being alive, we are lucky.

My Mind Scares Me

Sometimes, my mind scares me. How deeply I think of some things, how I perceive the world, people around me…my daily interactions. I feel like I feel too much, I catch a lot of things most people don’t…I can immediately immerse my self in someone else’s story, feel what they feel, and offer complete and utter attention.

I think a lot of the time, I’m scared to own this. I spend a lot of time thinking life would be so much easier if I didn’t think so much (lol). If I didn’t analyze everything and everyone. If I didn’t always want to know WHY…if I didn’t care so much about how my actions affect others…life would just be EASIER.

I’m definitely an empath through and through, I have a bad habit of sacrificing myself for others gains, something I am working on. I need to be a little more selfish, for the benefit of myself.

Anyways, I’m trying a new thing…where every day I tell myself I’m good, I’m good enough. This is my mind, and its all I have, until the day I die. So, I need to love it. I need to own it. I need to see the positives. Even though I feel this overthinking mind is the reason why I experience anxiety, depression, panic attacks, high levels of stress in general…It will also be the reason why I will be successful. Why, I will win in my life story.

Its scary to love yourself, to love your mind. But, I’m starting to believe it is the only way to true happiness.

7 months of HSV2

So, it has been about 7 months of living with my new friend, HSV2, and I’ve figured out a few things that seem to be working to keep my outbreaks under control.

After I was diagnosed, I took it very seriously and starting taking a ton of different vitamins and minerals…then, I got lazy and quite frankly just didn’t want to deal with it…and then BAMBAMBAM, outbreak after friggen outbreak! That is when I realized, this new friend is more of a stubborn bitch.


I am sharing my regime in hopes that it helps others who are also struggling/new to the HSV2 relationship.

Firstly, I have figured out my triggers; stress and exhaustion (like almost everyone else). Avoiding these two things is extremely difficult, but I find even deep breathing helps!

Second, I have not been lazy about taking my vitamins!

Currently, everyday I take:

  • Multi-vitamin x2
  • Vitamin C x2
  • Zinc
  • L-Lysine
  • Selenium
  • Theracurmin

Finally, I take Epsom salt baths nearly every day, and I apply extra strength Zinc Cream aka Diaper Rash Cream (lol) to the area my outbreak occurs, during an out break as well as when I have no outbreak at all. During an outbreak I also apply Apple Cider Vinegar to the sores to assist in fast healing. I also drink a TON of Green Tea! Drink it, drink it, drink it and then drink some more!

Since I have been sticking to this routine, it has been over a month and a half since I’ve had an outbreak! YAY!

Fingers crossed this keeps working for me, and maybe works for you too!


I Stopped Wearing Deodorant

I’ve been wanting to give up conventional women’s deodorant for quite some time now. After watching numerous documentaries on how many awful chemicals are in deodorant, I decided when my Mum sent me an all natural deodorant, there was no better time to make the switch.

So, does all natural deodorant work? Yes and no. The scent is great (I use Sage Floral http://www.saje.com/ca/natural-deodorants/) and I love the refreshing feel it gives to my underarms when I spray it on…honestly it helps wake you up! And it armpits-thumb.jpgdefinitely works…if I’m not doing activities that work up a sweat, that is.

I also really enjoy how it naturally wears off, which may be a deterrent to some people, but I loved getting to know my bodies natural smell. At different times of the month, I noticeably smelt different. Not sure if this has something to do with a woman’s cycle, but nonetheless it was very cool to notice such a natural body process.

One day, I woke up and smelt awful…not just body odour after a long run awful, but genuinely stinky (may be a good time to mention I don’t have an overly powerful natural scent). Anyways, I did not smell good, and within a few hours I had come down with an awful cold! I then wondered if I would have paid more attention to my smell the days leading up, I could of prevented this cold…I’m going to assume, yes!

Sage Floral is the first natural deodorant I had ever tried, and I was really enjoying it! Until about a month after wearing it, I noticed at work, I did not smell very friendly, and as a waitress, you want to be as friendly as possible. So, I have unfortunately switched back to the chemical stuff 😦 . However! If I’m not working, I try to stick to my natural buddy. And in writing this post realized, maybe applying the natural one during my shift might help with the smell/sweat.

Overall though, an extremely positive experience and I totally encourage everyone to give it a try! Maybe soon, there will be a natural deodorant that can last through a sweaty serving shift…& let me know if you’ve found one, please!



My View on Make-up

My favourite make-up advert is something along the lines of, “Mastering a killer no-makeup makeup look requires some, well, makeup.” Hm. Or you know, you could just NOT wear makeup! This makes me laugh.

I hate how we are all so brain washed into make-up. Honestly, its literal CRAP you are rubbing all over your face, for NO REASON. It is not good for you AND it is expensive as shit. Also, men are not pressured the way woman are to wear makeup. Men, don’t feel the need to cover blemishes…so why do woman? Why do we have to be “picture perfect?”

I stopped wearing makeup almost a year ago now. It has been amazing, truly life altering. I started wearing makeup when I was 12 years old. Now that I think about that, that is insane! I wore makeup for almost 9 years, feeling like I was my best self with a mask on. How insane. Not to mention the amount of money I must have spent in 9 years…holy fuck.

Anyways, not wearing makeup has been fucking fabulous. I’ve never felt better! I’ve saved a crap load of money, and have so much more confidence. When you don’t wear makeup, you literally worry less.

It is great, give it a try!

Sometimes I think life is just a Game

Sometimes, I think life is just a game. I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle of winning, and losing. It’s funny how life can be so glorious at times, and then so horrid at others.

If you’ve never experienced any horror in your life, you are amongst the lucky ones.

But, maybe if you have never experienced horror, you can never experience true happiness either. Like, to understand sadness, you must understand what happiness means first, and vice versa.

Anyways, I guess no one really knows. Because all we know, is basically what we humans have defined……….Sometimes, I find that strange.